I have reconfirmed my belief that restaurants should HAVE to post calorie content for their meals somewhere easily accessible. You may recall that little Stuffed French Toast comment I made. Yes, I knew it was unhealthy. Well, I looked it up, and the sucker had 1500 calories!! If I had known that, there would've been NO WAY I'd have ordered it. Now, one might argue that we are all intelligent people here and we can obviously tell sugar and butter slathered french toast with blueberry pie filling and whipped cream cheese frosting oozing out of it is not going to be good for us. This is totally true. I KNEW as I was eating it that I was eating something bad. The sort of light-headed feeling I got partway through was a good indication although I was not sure that wasn't the ice melting onto my lap from the apple juice Asher had poured all over me after squeezing and crumpling his styrofoam cup just like some uber muscle man crushing his 8th can of beer. Hey, at least he didn't smash it against his forehead and say "I'm going to pump - you - up!" Anyway, I was OK with this as a one time thing. I did not know the actual number though. Somehow, knowing that number made the difference. I'd have never eaten it. Now, I'm not mad at the restaurant or anything like that. It is not their fault that I ate it. They can have whatever they want on the menu. I just think, as a tool for me, it would be better for my health to have those numbers made clear before I order. My impulse eating tendencies seem to really need the stats made clear to be held at bay.
People have been asking for surrogacy updates. I haven't been giving much because there's not much to give. I had thought the guys were set on changing egg donors however it turns out they decided to wait on some medical testing to make that choice. I do believe there will be a decision made today in that regard. Just on a whim - hey - if you happen to be signed up as an egg donor and not getting your period and are being really vague on all the details - feel free to leave a comment or send me an e-mail… I'd love to know what the heck is going on! Counting 7 weeks out from now we'd have the earliest transfer time to be July 4th although I'm not certain 7 weeks would still be accurate with a new donor. You know, I wasn't going to say anything about this - but my history has been that I've only gotten pregnant in Sept or Oct for all of my living babies. It has all been total coincidence - those have certainly not been the only months that we've tried. Back when the transfer was to be in April or May, I didn't bring it up because it sounded a bit morbid. Now that weird coincidences have brought us closer and closer to those months though, it does seem odd. Still, I'm really really hoping that we're not still trying to get pregnant come those months. This is pregnancy though, which means even with all the medical intervention, we're not in control of much so we'll just have to see what happens.
Yesterday I went for a long walk around the neighborhood as my 'workout'. I don't know how much actual 'work' was involved in it but it was interesting. I checked out all the bank-owned homes in the area. There were 3 of them. Kinda a sad thing to see. Although - 2 of them were never owned by any real people. They had been built along the busy road that connects the businesses to the residential areas near where I live. They were these single family units that looked more like NY row houses. They had garages in the back that were not attached to the house. None of these things sounds very appealing. Noisy, dirty road, lots of stairs in a mostly up and down house, NOT attached and NOT heated garage in MN… what were they thinking??? If I had no kids and never planned on having kids I might have considered it due to being in walking distance of the shops and everything… but if I had no kids and never planned on having kids and wanted to live like that, I'm thinking this particular northern suburb would not be my first choice of living places. Also, I'd never get over the not attached garage. I'm not shocked that the bank seized them from the builders. Poor bank really, because those are never going to sell. Anyway, that was my workout. Tonight I'll be aiming for that pasta dinner and an early night so that I can get up bright and early and drive to the Eagan Fun Run. Wish me luck!!
One last thing - I have to brag a little about my son. Yesterday was the review of Gavin's IEP at school. Everyone had very glowing things to say about Gavin so I'm very happy about that. Now, he still has the same teacher that has, on many occasions, accused me of being a bad parent to Gavin. She has no children and honestly she's kinda a nut job though so in as much as it is possible for a parent to not care about someone saying that to him or her (which is really hardly possible at all) I'm there. Now, all of you Minnesotans reading this may want to look away for a bit as I'm about to be really self praising. I believe that under MANY other people's parenting, Gavin would've had a MUCH different life. I think that the way that I am with him has kept him mostly positive and enthusiastic and trusting of the world when he has had a LOT of hardships to deal with. He has had plenty of reasons to get down on himself, to have little to no self esteem, and to stop trusting adults and authority completely, not to mention no longer trusting himself. When he cannot always control his impulses and he finds himself often doing exactly what he would like himself to NOT be doing and gets into trouble so very very often, how many kids would've internalized that to themselves? Now, I still have a few years left before he is a teen (Of which I am completely aware and grateful for every last second) so those years of angst will undoubtedly bring on their own challenges. All the same, Gavin is still such a bright, charming, enthusiastic, happy boy and I'm so so so happy to see him able to realize that about himself.
